05/29/2026
I would give anything to walk back into that kitchen one more time.
To hear my auntie's laugh from across the room before I even saw her. To feel my grandmother's hand on the back of my neck as she passed behind my chair. To watch my uncle slip a piece of cornbread to the smallest cousin when nobody was looking. To smell whatever was simmering on the stove and know, without anyone telling me, that I was exactly where I was supposed to be.
We didn't know we were living in the good times.
That's the part that aches the most. We thought there would always be another gathering. Another Sunday. Another holiday where everybody made it home. We were too young to notice that the elders were teaching us how to be a family just by being one. We were too busy chasing the cousins through the house to realize we were standing in the middle of something we'd spend the rest of our lives trying to get back to.
Now the table is smaller.
Some chairs are empty that used to be full. Some voices we'd give anything to hear again live only in our memories now. The recipes don't taste the same when the hands that made them are gone. The house feels different. The holidays feel different. And every once in a while, in the middle of an ordinary day, the smell of something cooking or the sound of an old song will catch us off guard, and we'll have to sit down for a minute, because the missing is just too heavy to carry standing up.
But here is what I have come to know.
The good times don't disappear. They live in us. In the way I hug my children, the way my grandmother hugged me. In the way I season the greens, because I watched my auntie do it a thousand times. In the laugh, I didn't realize I'd inherited it until somebody told me I sound just like her. The elders left more than memories. They left a blueprint. And every time we gather, every time we cook together, every time we make space at the table for the ones we love, we are keeping the good times alive.